Doch, immer Noch! 

Sill, even Now!

I paint human presence at the threshold where it is felt, endangered, or denied.

Doch, immer Noch! is part of an ongoing memorial project that restores dignity, presence, and interiority to lives reduced by history, diagnosis, and bureaucracy. These works do not approach the figure as file, symptom, or category, but as a centre of inner life. They do not ask for pity, but for conscience.

 

 

This memorial begins from a shattering silence: the long erasure of autistic victims of Nazi violence from public memory. That erasure did not end with the Euthanasia Programmes. It continues whenever autistic and neurodivergent lives are still excluded from the human-image in society, even today. It responds by doing the opposite of that erasure. It brings back colour, presence, and attention where personhood and humaneness was denied.

The paintings move between tenderness and threat, innocence and cruelty, presence and its attempted destruction. I am not painting one side only. I am painting both the uniqueness of autistic presence and the violence with which neurodivergence has been met, then and now.

These are not portraits meant to sanctify the dead or turn suffering into image. They are a space of return. A space in which the erased meet our gaze directly, and history asks something of us, the living.

 

 

This memorial is not a conclusion. It is an altar for humaneness and questions: what counts as human, who gets included or excluded from that image, and what our present still reveals about that inherent violence.

Still here. Still human. Still irreducible.

This project will conclude with 40 large oil portraits of 40 autistic victims of the Nazi Euthanasia Programmes.